After years of being tight-lipped on the true reason behind leaving goth-metal band Evanescence, former guitarist Ben Moody has finally divulged.
In a post made on an Evanescence fan site, Moody opened up about the problems between himself and the band's lead singer Amy Lee.
Moody went into detail about their history and the true motivation behind his departure.
"A cruel fact of life is that the person you are at 15, doesn't resemble the person you are at 18 and 21… and today I in no way resemble the person I was when I was in Evanescence. Sometimes you grow together and sometimes you grow apart," he wrote.
"We both contributed to the resentment of the deterioration of our friendship that quickly turned into a downward spiral of animosity, conflicting opinions, and a very volatile environment. By the time we went on tour to support (2003's) Fallen, it sadly was over."
Moody said ironically, it was the pair's devotion to Evanescence that drove them to such extreme opposites.
"We had such opposing desires and personalities that mixed with the pride of youth and inexperience (and an extreme amount of insecurity and loss of direction on my part) led to an all out war."
Moody then apologised to Lee for trying to convince her to leave the band. "I had tried before, out of ignorance, pride, and resentment, to convince Amy that she should leave. That we'd be better off and Evanescence didn't need her. I was hurt, and wanted her to hurt like me," he wrote.
"Amy, if for some reason you happen to see this, I hope you know I never truly believed that. There was no way I would ever let someone walk on that stage and sing your lyrics."